I’ve done it again. I’ve gone and over-loved another baby and now she’s obsessed. She cries when I leave the room, even though there are other people in the room aka her brothers and Aunty Hubs. She follows me to the bathroom and observes like a psychopath and this … this is how she must go to sleep when she stays over otherwise, she’s not going to sleep. She kicks her brother when we’re all in bed. He’s not allowed to be near me. So we hold hands secretly. Uncle Jasiah arrived from the big smoke today to spent his second week of school holidays with The Livian’s. A date with Hubs at our spot in town. The closest thing to a diner with comfort food that Hastings has to offer. The boy asked Nan Nan for a tent to make a hut. She granted his wish. Dreamy Dumplings the food truck .. the best tasting I’ve had ever, but 6 pieces for $10. Tonight I have 4 kids. All I wanted to do was watch the rugby in peace. It wasn’t meant to be.
A whole school term has gone by and I didn't cave and go beg for my job back. There were a few times where I missed the place and there were nights when I dreamed of being back there, but I didn't pay it any attention because I know that mentally, I am better off. I just miss my work peeps. I have spent my days considering what to do next. I've paid more attention to the world and what's going on around us. I've put a lot of time into building up our food storage and I wait for Hubs to come home from school like how Forest Gump waited for his kid. It's been a little like that. Hub's has said several times that she loves coming home after school. For 6 years our lives consisted of her going somewhere else after school, waiting for me to pick her up, having dinner and spending maybe an hour together before it was time for her to go to bed just to do it all again the next day. Family matters more than anything Internets. I calculated that, while I was working
Today our Tinks turned a year old. We spent 20 minutes in the Aquarium in Napier and then got drive through McDonalds before coming home. Today she gave no craps about fish or chicken nuggets, but her afternoon bath was probably the best part of her day. Happy birthday big girl!
While trying to look for a scripture in the bible a few nights ago, I came across something in Luke 12 that stuck out. 54 ¶ And he said also to the people, When ye see a cloud rise out of the west, straightway ye say, There cometh a shower; and so it is. 55 And when ye see the south wind blow, ye say, There will be heat; and it cometh to pass. 56 Ye hypocrites, ye can discern the face of the sky and of the earth; but how is it that ye do not discern this time? Basically what its saying is .. you see a cloud and you know it's 'gon rain. You feel the wind and you know it's 'gon blow, but why when you see all these things happening in the world ... you're a dumbass? If there is a good time to find your chi in what you believe in, it's probably now.
I’ve let the last month and a bit breeze by without an update. There is very little to report, but what I can report in the last month that is quite epic for me .. necessary debt aside, I am debt free. The kids continue to grow. Tinks will be 1 at the end of the month. Hubs will be 11 in September. And that’s all I have for this post :)
I quit my job this week. Effective immediately. I use to love my job, until I was micro managed and bullied. It was not an easy decision, but it was the best decision. I have been going through the motions and have been waiting to feel regretful, but that wave hasn’t come yet and I don’t think it will. Under the current circumstances of that particular place of employment, it is not a place to progress. It is quite toxic. After 17 years there, my Mum resigned too. The scary part is wondering what to do next. It has to work with Hubs because I’ve spent the last few years missing out on time with her because of work. We pretty much woke up, went to school and work, came home, spent an hour together before it was time to go to bed. I have a few things up my sleeve. I’m expecting issues with that work place for not giving 4 weeks notice as my contract said, but that hasn’t come yet. I have more to look forward to now that I’m not a robot for that place. I’m just not sure what exactly I’
I'm disgusted in myself because it's been another month without a post. There have been a few emails of concern and a couple of messages and texts from people prodding me to update, but life got in the way. So we missed blogging about our birthdays. It was uneventful, but expensive especially for a 4 year old boy who wanted to play games at the Flip-Out arcade instead of actually flipping out. I didn't get any photos of him doing that, but I have receipts of a $70 spend on a shooting game that he only ever won 3 tickets from at a time. I won more defeating PacMan twice. Work has not been kind .. but in an unpredictable world right now, it’s hard to find anything here that doesn’t involve apples. I’ve told myself to stick it out, if for anything, for the senior boys this year who were new entrants when I first started. I’ve seen them through all their high school years and this is their last. It’s the only insentive I have to stay. I want to see them graduate. Then it will b
It’s been a month since I last posted anything. Time is not my friend lately, especially now work has started again. My week day is basically wake up - work - home - eat - sleep. I cherish the weekends. A photo update. I’ve been crap in that area too. I need to motivate myself to carry my actual camera around with me. The iPhone is fantastic, but some shots are just better taken with the real deal ... which none of the following photos are.