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PhotoShop and dead peeps.

Let me tell you about how I recently applied for a job at a local Mortuary because they needed someone advanced in Photoshop. Did not get the correlation at first until I did some research via their website to see that funeral programs and heavily pictured obituaries are offered as a part of their service to take care of departed loved ones. I applied right away. Sent in my resume and portfolio. I was able to tick a few more of their boxes like, competent in Microsoft Office and a list of Adobe products. Had a phone interview last Thursday and was asked a bunch of questions about empathy and was emailed a few case scenarios and how I'd work my way out of them. Pretty sure I was secured the job when I received the list of duties and given a start date of mid-Jan. Read through three pages of duties and was feeling quite happy with myself. It was that easy. Then I got to the bottom of the list. Late night closing. Final check and securing of the cold chambers. What's

Where are we going?

Read a blog online a few months ago about planning family holidays. Since there's only two of us, basically, I thought it would be easy and started to 'plan' the same day I read the blog. I had used before and knew that they take bookings and you don't have to pay until the end of your trip. I thought this was awesome, until I realized that planning 4 holidays for all of next year quickly added up to a little under 5k- round trip. Decided quickly that the blog I read only gave me one useful advice. Plan ahead. When we were in California, we'd head to Ventura once a month to get away. We could back then. We had the time and finances to do it on a whim. Now and again we'd head the other way to Vegas and stay in Primm, NV where the hotels, back then, were $16 a night and not a mattress in a carpark as you'd expect for that price. The best I've done in NZ was when Larry's niece came a few months ago and we stayed in a fancy hotel in Au


I've been sick for days. As per usual, people came to visit when I didn't want them to. I've had no visitors all week and they all come when I'm sick and just want to be in bed. They even bang on my window and shout "I know you're home" until I get up. The downfall of living here. Really want to invest in a 6-foot fence and a security gate. We put up our tree tonight. I wasn't digging the blue this year so I let Hub's hang the whites and we'll get some gold during the week.


Sometimes I sit in church and think ... It sucks that I'll never get to hear him bless the sacrament again. It sucks that I'll never get to hear him speak again. It sucks that I'll never get to feel the power in when he was given a new church assignment again. ... but I quickly remember that I will and I did. What's more powerful than knowing you've done what you came to do on Earth and that your life was in complete order and ample to be called back to the presence of God? The power in that alone is enough to bring fulfillment where grief should be. Nothing has changed. He is still here.

Thanksgiving 2016.

Had it a day early this year. Thanksgiving for us is actually remembering the day Larry died, which happens to be on the actual Thanksgiving Day this year. There's a lot of things I'm thankful for in him and so the name fits the reason and it's pure coincidence that it occurred around Thanksgiving time. It's the American in Amaorican. Typically I invite a few people aside from the circus, but I changed the day and they couldn't make it. Tomorrow Ngawi has surgery. I wanted him and his parents to be with us tonight.

It's a new day.

2017 - No Drama.

November is always sad for me, did not realize it would suck this much by the end of it. The Boaties visit last week took my mind off of things, but it's a new day today and there's a new drama to add to the list November has bought me. I wrote in my actual diary at the beginning of the year. "Make 2016 just about my house hold". My problem is, I love my family too much to stay away, stay out of it and not offer support where needed. By November, I've bumped heads with too many people and only after talking with Mitchy yesterday did I decide, it's time to just not care. A hard thing to do, but an essential thing to do, for my own emotional well being. A few years ago a close family member got in trouble legally and at the worst time during Larry's health issues, accused me of "narking". For real .. while my husband slowly died, I had time to nark someone out for something I had no idea of. That family member accused me twice. Larry told me to

Can't go a day without my Avis.

Wrapped up the evening at The Livians with fireworks and goodbyes and moochies from Aviliscious.

A taste of summer.

Met up with The Farmers out at Waimarama. Ariel's last day in Hawkes Bay today before she heads back up to Auckland tomorrow and to the US of A early Monday morning. We fit in some last minute stuff today. They checked off the Hawkes Bay basics. 1. Rush Munroes Ice-Cream 2. Te Mata Peak 3. Fish n Chips 4. Silky Oak Chocolate Factory 5. Fancy McDonalds 6. Dominoes Pizza and it's atrocious pizzas. 7. Waimarama 8. Napier 9. The fancy new KMart. 10. The Circus (Family) Tyler also arrived home late last night from her three week rendezvous in Te Waipounamu. Dreading tomorrow for Hubba's sake. It's been a good week. I've come to know my husbands first born much better in the last 6 days than I ever did in the 16 years I've known her. It's bought closure I didn't know was needed and blossomed a relationship that was long overdue.

In Napier.

As Sunday quickly approaches, I fear it's going to be a bad day for Hubs. Ariel will lose her shadow that day. It might be a bad day for both of them.

Mid Week.

Hub's loves her Ariel. She's going to be a very sad fish when Ariel leaves on Sunday. Hoping Tyler returning tomorrow night will fill the void .. but somehow I don't think so. Jazzy died two years ago today. It has gone by quick.