Wednesday, January 30, 2013

New year ... new camera.

Updated my point & shoot.
Some of the point & shoots these days are much better than some DSLRs.

End of Jan 2013.

The month has gone by pretty fast. School started this week, next week for our school here locally. This is the stuff that makes me happy. When you've been dealing with kids for the last 6 weeks, school starting is like winning a trip to Disneyland.

Shai started High School yesterday.
Getting old.

Working on your headstone. We'll have it in place by our birthdays in March.

Heading to Auckland for some sister time next week.
Much needed.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

The Sabbath.

Decided it was time to cook again. You love my cooking! How could I let it go unappreciated when there are so many more here that would enjoy it. So yesterday (and last Sunday), I made Japanese Dynamite. A hit.

The toaster oven we purchased last year came in handy when it was time to bake it.

Crab Enchiladas for Sunday lunch.
Pilaf with Saffron.

Crab is ok in enchiladas when you're buying it from a Don Cuco Restaurant, but I think pollo is the best.

Jeston, who turned 8 on Monday, was LDS dunked this evening in a small gathering at our chapel. It was pretty last minute, but it came together nicely.

I said he looked like Peter Pan the White in his baptism outfit and told him he just needed wings and he'd be a 'mariposa'. Glad he watches enough Dora to understand that Mariposa means butterfly and not the urban slang of mariposa I was referring to.

I gave him a wedgie before he stepped into the font, so he had a smile on his face when he entered the waters of baptism.

The stars over the kids heads identify the kids that belong to just my family from 2 of my brothers and a cousin. None of them know what reverence is.

There are 2 kids missing.
Miss you .. like all the time.

Saturday, January 26, 2013


I was trained in film photography. When digital came about, I wasn't on board and stuck with film.
It's only been in the last few years that I've moved fully into digital, but there are still alot of things I don't know. Like advanced PhotoShop.

Now that Nursing is off the cards, I tried my luck applying in a Digital Photography program. I hadn't heard anything and I applied last month. The program fills up quick and I was certain I'd missed out because the first intake begins on the 4th of Feb. I called yesterday and the school confirmed my place in 2 intakes this year.

It's always ever been about Art.
I was only going into Nursing so I knew how to tend to my sick husband at his worst times. Although I don't appreciate his early departure, I do appreciate that he too always knew it was all about Art.

Now I need to sell an ovary for the Canon EOS 6D (or the Nikon D4).

Still not learning LightWave.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Back to 1963

YouTubing tonight, I found this video from The Danny Kaye Show in 1963 when the Maori group, Te Arohanui, made their debut. The footage is so old, I can only make out a few faces, but at 6:09 minutes I can clearly hear my grandmothers distinct soprano begin the last song and throughout.  I can also hear the voice of our neighbour across the road, Nanny Maere, who is rocking 94, at the beginning.

Bet you didn't know dragons sung opera.

Day 62.

Slept without the TV on all night last night. First time in 2 months.
I'm learning to deal with the days where I need you here more than anything.
Today is one of those days.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

2 months.

I think I wanted to be home for your 2 months.
Keeping occupied is the key to overcoming.

I read "Proof of Heaven" by Eben Alexander, thanks to your Mom for the heads-up. If that's Spirit Prison, I can't begin to imagine Paradise.

Enchiladas for dinner.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013


I can happily say I wasn't ready to leave the nest.
"Camping" was an epic fail.
We paid $300 for a bach and only 4 of us slept there .. for one night.
It was paid for 2 nights and there were 10 of us.
13km on a gravel road. My poor car.
7km from where my parents set up camp to the bach where we stayed .. in other words, 7kms to the bathroom from camp .. on a gravel road.
Then there were the kids ....
This is what they did most of the time.

The babies had a ball.

Shai wanted to go home soon after we got there (I did too, I was just being more adult about it than she was).

The wind lastnight not only ripped apart my parents WalMart tent .. it broke the gazebos pictured.

One leg. Broken arm.

This is what they did for recreation if they weren't on iPods.

Paua .. Abalone .. it was too rough to get Crays.

View from the bedroom.

View from the lounge.


Unless you have wings .. you're screwed. That close to the coast ... all the arrow means is, "Swim that way".

Surf shots.

He only caught two waves in the 30 minutes I stood waiting.

Hubba did not like seaweed.

Jeston told me Richie McCaw had a house along the coast there in Tora. I was willing to stay another night when I heard that, but it was lies.

We all travelled home today.
Some people just don't go camping.
It's not in my blood. Neither is doing dishes and massaging feet.

Honestly .. I think even if you were here, I would not have been able to endure it. Always great to be with family though. Glad to be home. It always feels like you are here everytime I walk through the door.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Day 57

They said there'd be odd days where I'd miss you more than the usual days.
Days where you need those open arms to fall into for a comfort hug.
Where you need that shoulder to lean on after a hectic day.
Where your hand on my knee while driving picks up my spirits.
Where just laying in bed analysing the ceiling together is enough.

Yesterday I questioned why all over again.

I told myself yesterday that I wasn't going to church today because I wasn't feeling it. My excuse was going to be suspected chicken pox (the baby). I simply had a rough day emotionally yesterday. 30 minutes before church was about to begin something whispered to get ready and go.

The last speaker in sacrament meeting said just what I needed to hear and he was very blunt about it.

Go to the temple.
I haven't been since this photo was taken.
July 9th 2010.
The day we were sealed.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Parenting 101.

I've learned to block out the cries.
I've learned to remain calm when you think 'the laying on of hands' is needed.
I've learned what not-so-cute is.
I've learned to gather my chi when she spits her food out all over the floor.
I've learned to just Facetime Aunty Ness when she cries and cries for it even though it's after bedtime.

I commend my sister and sisters-in-law for doing it with more than one kid. Above all, she's still an angel and no one else can tell me different.

You'd agree Love.
She talks about you every day.

Camping on Tuesday.

Big loves to the whanau who lost their little boy today. I think my heart aches more over this little 2 year old than it did when my Love passed.

Friday, January 18, 2013

From Larell

Sometimes videos like this, received on iMessage, are the ones that you need at the right moment.
Thanks Larellephant!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Summer camping.

Toying with the idea to go "camping" with my family next week for 4 days. I talked them out of tent style camping and got them all onto the idea to book a bach instead because I don't do camping. It's in the cards. The area we'll be going is so remote there is no cellphone reception out there.

I can live 4 days without WiFi and TV, it's the kids that will drive me bongos.

We shall see.
Wish you were coming too.

Looking forward to winter because you know what one joy winter brings?

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

It's just nice to know.

"Where is the spirit world? Is it away up in the heavens? That isn't what the scriptures and our brethren explain. They have told us the spirit world is right here round about us, and the only spirits who can live here are those who are assigned to fill their missions here on earth. This is the spirit world. And if our eyes could be opened we could see those who have departed from us--a father, mother, brother, a sister, a child. We could see them, and sometimes when our physical senses are asleep, sometimes our spiritual self--and we have ears, spiritual ears, and spiritual eyes--sometimes they will be very keen and awake, and a departed one may come while we are lying asleep and come into our consciousness. We'll feel an impression. We'll wake up. Where does it come from? It comes from the spirits of those whom we are sealed to" - Harold B Lee.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Day 51

You had a thing about Q-Tips and you'd leave them everywhere, used and unused. I began to hate the things because I'd be picking them up to trash them all the time. I got rid of your particular ones last month.

I dreamed of you last night. We were laying in bed and I was nestled perfectly under your arm and shoulder. Our snuggle position. Waking up got me emotional because it felt real and I couldn't get back to sleep. 2.55am.

You left a momento.
A Q-Tip.

I swear I threw them all out and it sat right in the middle of the bed this morning.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Mangakuri Beach

Another gem location I never knew about until recently. I knew of Mangakuri being the ideal spot for seafood, but it was great location for a Saturday family day out. It was actually a ward activity for elders quorum and high priests.
Only your jandals (flip flops) are missing.

Hubba didn't like the water at first.


She changed her mind after a few minutes.

Your footprints are missing too!

Leven, who is nearly a year old.



Stan the Man.


Just like they do in Mexico. We forgot the chili .. and butter .. and salt.

The babies.


Ngawi and his Daddy-O.

Good dayout.
I do dislike I am doing all of this without you, but it's part of the 'looking forward' process and time fly's when you're having fun. I pretty much want to have fun so time can fly by and we'll be together again as partners in crime.
Miss you.

Friday, January 11, 2013

Things I've wanted to tell you since you left ..

1. The Asian grocery store has Yucca chips.
2. Since I paid the Internet bill, it got faster.
3. The Hobbit sucked.
4. NZ finally got Powerade Zero.
5. Found where you hid all the face cloths and Vicks.
6. The baby sat on the toilet! It was backwards but she didn't cry! (Or complete a transaction)
7. Still miss you.

Day 48

Wednesday was Michelles birthday. She told everyone she was 30, but she's 34.
Nice try Michelle.

It's been hot all week. The hottest days being Wednesday and yesterday. The highest it got was the same age Michelle became on Wednesday.  

That temperature doesn't sound too bad if it were desert heat, but it's muggy island heat and it's unbearable.

The birthday girl .. who is 34 and not 30.

Today isn't so bad. We're currently sitting at 22°c (my age).

Everything is going in a good direction.
I am content.
I love coming home at the end of the day, because it feels like you are here and that's enough.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

While I sleep ..

If dreams, like some people tend to believe, are memories from an alternate universe, then I'm glad you were in mine lastnight.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Waipatiki Beach

Born and bred in Hawkes Bay and I'd never ever heard of Waipatiki in all my years. I wish I knew about it before last week. I would have taken you there for an R&R. In the three hours we were there .. alot happened.

First I drove our car across the sand and got stuck. This is what happens when you listen to 2 know-it-all teenagers who direct you to where you should park. My brothers spent the first 30 minutes trying tow the car out. After breaking Jestons surf straps, it was done.

Cold Jeston.

Shai .. Shai, Shai, Shai. *shakes head*.
Shai learned what a rip was today. When she came walking back looking traumatized from a swim with mascara running down her face, it was obvious something was wrong. Then she told us how she and Tyler were swept away from Aunty Tash and near some rocks and how she had to be saved (Thanks Dad!). I asked her if she saw a light. I told her she was close to "seeing Uncle Larry" to which she responded, "That would have been cool". She didn't go back in past her hips after that episode.

Rome. How one can be so beautiful and so evil all in one body is beyond me.

Big Brother. Saved two of his kids lives today!

I took out my daddy-mac lens. I had to get back in to it eventually. Today was a great opportunity. Olly body boarded.

Jeston surfed in the 4 footers. It didn't get higher than that and the best ride looked like the white wash ride in.

Over all, it was a great day.

I wish I knew about the place before. You go through all the motions a NZ country side has to offer and it started at a sea of cornfields for 2km.

It's been 45 days.
Wish you were here.

Summer part 2

Nessa envisioned this shoot with my nephew Ellis. They pulled it all together very well. Hubs was supposed to be in it, but got stage fright...