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Day 34

Rough day yesterday without you.
Easily one of the worst in a few weeks and it was all because of The Hobbit.
A planned trip to the movies turned out to be a nightmare because the last place we were (Tuesday before you died) was the movies.
I couldn't do it.
I feel the same way about Te Mata Peak and the hospital.
Everytime I see the hospital I cringe and ask myself why they couldn't do more, but I know it was your time and I know you were willing and ready.
The attitude is all from missing you.
And I do.
Very much.

I have very few photos of you and I together because I'm always behind the camera.
Here's one for the people who asked ;)

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