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Everything has gone according to the plan that was set out for us and I'm coming to terms with that. I have no regrets on the last day of 2012, just a void that will refill itself in time.

I've been home all day watching Ghost Hunters and doing laundry and I'll be home all night seeing the new year in with Hubba and Shai. Another midnight kiss I'll miss from you.

My new years resolution is to look forward. After a rough week last week I've learned that there's no healing in crying about it. There's no healing in feeling that pain over and over again. The bible says to "Look forward" and that's what I'll do in 2013 .. put my shoulder to the wheel and push along.


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