Saturday, October 24, 2020

Labour weekend

Happy Hawkes Bay Anniversary.
Nessa became an adult.
And our Honey is chunky monkey.

Friday, October 23, 2020


 It's normal to have a variety of dynamics in a family that set off a variety of emotions that results in this one not liking that one. It follows every family.

I've been observing over the last few years. I've helped. I've cried. I've been the glue. I've said no. I've been the shoulder and I've given. I've been thinking about it for a while, about how I gave my all to two people through their illness til their death. I gave up a lot to return to NZ for 6 months before Aunty Marva died. I gave up work and school to see Larry through his last few years and I can say it was all worth it. They were worth it.

I don't want to be the only one that serves at the end of someones life anymore especially when there are family members capable to at least help. I don't want to be the only one who helps anymore.

This is not me being selfish. I just want to take the time to raise my child, create memories and teach her everything I know so that when I die I can die knowing that she is going to be OK without me. I can't do that when I'm looking after adults capable of looking after themselves or turning for help somewhere else before me.

I am reliable, but I am tired.

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Vote NZ

Hubs came home from school on Monday and told me all about her day of voting and debating in class. With the upcoming election, I’m glad her teacher had a thought to give them insight into not only the importance of voting, but the freedom of choice to have your say. 

There are two referendums this year with the general election.  One is to legalize the production, sale, possession and use of cannabis recreationally.

She told me she voted yes for cannabis in their class election. When asked why, she informed them that she knows it helps sick people better than medicine does. The medicinal use of cannabis is already legal in NZ. 
I explained that to her, but the cost of it in comparison is quite mind blowing. 
$350 for a 200ml bottle from a pharmacy.
$350 per litre not from a pharmacy. 
You do the math.

With the euthanasia referendum, she voted yes. This is the bill for voluntary euthanasia. It comes with conditions. Her reasoning was because she didn’t want people to suffer if they didn’t have to. While I appreciated her concern, I did not agree on this one. 

I’ve seen the discomfort that comes with dying. I know the misery an ill person goes through in their last days, but at the end of a persons life it’s the perfect time for us to give back by showing love, care and compassion in those final moments. I know that there is no quality of life near the end, but your service back can be quality. 

When the doctors gave Larry 12 months to live, he bypassed that date by 18 months. They were the most impressionable and refining months of my life. He prepared me, in those 18 months, for a life without him.

The best part happens in the last part.

Tuesday, October 13, 2020

Term 3 holidays

Term 4 starts tomorrow. It’s the last term of the school year. It has ten weeks in it, but if you add in labour weekend and exams starting, it’s more like a six week term. 
I cannot wait until this term is over. Unfortunately, this term is going to be the worsts. Term 4 at an all
Boys boarding school is usually full of mischief.

Snaps from the holidays.

Summer part 2

Nessa envisioned this shoot with my nephew Ellis. They pulled it all together very well. Hubs was supposed to be in it, but got stage fright...