Monday, November 21, 2016

2017 - No Drama.

November is always sad for me, did not realize it would suck this much by the end of it. The Boaties visit last week took my mind off of things, but it's a new day today and there's a new drama to add to the list November has bought me.

I wrote in my actual diary at the beginning of the year. "Make 2016 just about my house hold". My problem is, I love my family too much to stay away, stay out of it and not offer support where needed. By November, I've bumped heads with too many people and only after talking with Mitchy yesterday did I decide, it's time to just not care. A hard thing to do, but an essential thing to do, for my own emotional well being.

A few years ago a close family member got in trouble legally and at the worst time during Larry's health issues, accused me of "narking". For real .. while my husband slowly died, I had time to nark someone out for something I had no idea of. That family member accused me twice. Larry told me to cut them off. They weren't welcome in our home, I walked by them in the street and when they wanted something, and they always did, I turned them away. It took me 6 years to completely cut that person off and the reason it took that long was because deep down inside, I knew the church taught that families are the most important people in your life.

November taught me that family will be the first to kick you when you're down. To bite your hand clean off when you feed them. November showed me what loyalty really means.

I love them all, but some of them are bastards fricken nuts.

Unless it involves me directly now, I do not care anymore. I will not care.
November was experience enough for me to sever more ties for the benefit of my own sanity.

Families will still be together forever, but if you're gonna be a dick on Earth, it will be that long before I make contact again.

1 comment:

Ariel Shultz said...

Dude, I feel you. Seriously, read my friend Jenn's blog. It's got some good tools in there for shiz like this. <3